Forever and a day

Howdy Y'all,

sorry it's been so long since the last post, I have become a facebook junkie and tend to spend way too much of my computer time on there. anyway I got bored at work and thought I might add some random thoughts up here for once, they may or may not be shifted over there too but that's no matter.

So recently I've been trying to let God teach me patience. we all know that the favorite way to teach us patience is by asking us to wait for something. now this isn't usually something I'd just up and pray for, however it seems like I end up in spots in my life where I either ask God to give me patience and peace in the mean time, or I go crazy trying to run ahead of him and his plans all the while I know I'm being dumb. So while I wish I could say that I'm this wonderfully spiritual person who would very willingly and excitedly pray for patience, it's just not true, far from it in fact. but little by little God is teaching me something, I'm still not quite sure yet what but it's something.

Along those lines I've been trying to learn how to enjoy life without thinking too much about the future. For anyone that knows me well knows I am a planner, I like to know what's going on and have a contengency plan for everything. I'm good so long as I know my possibilities and when I'll know for sure by, but if you ask me to put on a blind fold and just walk into the darkness you'll have a fight on your hands. I guess that's a trust issue, but I just don't handle that well. anyway, I'm trying to grasp the concept of not having to have a contengency plan for everything and just generally enjoy where I am, good bad or otherwise. I tend to have more trouble trusting during the good and otherwise, because I feel like I can handle things then, so why ask God. Again, that's a dumb moment on my part.  but yet another work in progress.

What else am I learning and going through, I'm not real sure. but one thought I had just recently is on praise and thankfulness. I get caught up in my "me me me"s and my "I want"s and I ignore that God has answered my prayers and just simply provided me with small things that I never even thought of asking for that are just little blessings and joys in life. I've been praying about something since may or before and there for a while it seemed like God wasn't getting the message, or worse yet wasn't going to answer like I wanted. This weekend on my way back to Rolla I got a phone call where I was told that part of that prayer(it's a multi part thing) had been answered. It actually took me a minute or two after I got off the phone before I realized that God was faithful and had answered my request and would continue to take care of the rest of it. Now this was not a small thing, it wasn't like I asked God for a sunny sky or a walk in the park or something (btw yes I have prayed for those) this was a big thing that I shouldn't have hesitated to realize that  God deserved praise for it, I even acknowledged on the phone that this was an answer to prayer but I still didn't connect that to praise. In later contemplating this I realized just how much I have been offered in my life that I fail to praise God for, everything from a wonderful church family that loves and cares for each other to great friends who love me enough to be absolutely rotten, from roommates that can share life together and will wait up for each other just to hear the advice they already know they'll get to an amazing man who is completely in love with God who I am privledged enough to get to share life with. And those are just the people, God answers prayers with jobs that he asks you to turn down and then provides one 2 days later that is absolutely what you needed, he gets hw to not be due when you simply ran out of time to get it done, it's calming nerves on tests, it's seeing someone across campus that makes you laugh and smile, it's sharing time with family, and so many other things. I don't mean to get into this hugely long super sappy ramble, but I just felt that I have failed to see how much awesomeness God provides us with each day, I take it for granted and I shouldn't.

Anyway, off that soap box. So I'm not sure what else to say, I should probably provide a general life update on here but I'm not sure what I should update because I'm not sure who if anyone even reads xanga anymore. so if there's anything specific you want to know leave me a comment, or if you do read this just drop me a comment so I'll know whether or not I should keep posting here, even if it is once a year or so, and I will try to do better with that, I promise.

That's all for now, Laters Y'all.

Currently Reading Three By Ted Dekker see related

MIA

    Wow so it's been 4 months almost since I posted anything, and man has life changed since september. So here goes at trying to recap 4 months without turning this into a novel.

    In the last real post I mentioned that God was working really hard in my life with patience and waiting on his timing. Well truth be told he's still working on that, however it's patience in different things now. At the time I was interested in this boy, we'll call him Andrew. Ok so I was attempting to be patient and wait for God to work things out, come to find out, he did. in November Andrew and I started dating after having gotten to know each other since August. I have to say this, he is an amazing Godly man, he brings me closer to God every day, he's encouraging, loving, caring, and so many more things that I can't even give justice to. Now i don't mean to say he's perfect, I am aware that that is not true, however he is wonderful and was well worth the wait. When we talk about the first few months we knew each other it's obvious that God was working in both of us to make sure we were prepared for his timing, apparantly everyone from church knew something was up before we did, go figure.

    Also since then the two of us along with a group of really awesome friends, all of which I just got to know this past semester, were in a roll over car accident. Long story short, only one person was really injured, it's a miracle she's alive after she was thrown from then car before it landed on her 2x, and no one else was hurt. God was really protecting us.

    Let's see, that's most of the major life events, other than that one of my sisters is pregnant, soon I'll be surrounded by small children and sisters who are mothers, odd man out time, but it will be a blast. Classes went ok last semester, with one exception, but I will never have to deal with phys 23 again, I decided to take the non engineering way out of it. Not to say I'm no longer an engineer, i am stil an Eman, but i got out of that class. This sesmeter is looking good though, all classes are still going well, hopefully that will continue.

   Anyway this really has turned into a mini novel and I know I'm missing things but that's really all I can think of for now. Laters yall.

Hail the conquering hero!

ok so a once in a lifetime phenomenon just happened, I scored 100% on an online calc 3 hw, this may not seem like a huge feet to some but it's miraculous that it happened to me. just thought I'd share that first and foremost.

other than my wonderful calculus moment(did I actually just write that? ) life's been pretty roller coaster ish the past few days. Not only am i fighting sinus junk but I'm still working really hard on the whole waiting for God's timing thing, and especially this weekend God's been teaching me patience with this. Giving me little things to hold onto hope of a certain possibility while at the same time going "see I'm working in this situation so that it will be even better for you when I'm done". ok God that's great and i appreciate it, don't get me wrong but i am so incredibly impatient part of me would take things as they are now just so i wouldn't have to wait. but thank goodness God knows me inside and out and has put barriers up to keep me from getting in his way.(hits metaphorical brick wall at 30mph at a 60 degree angle, wait no more physics problems ahh!) anyway I really should stop writing these vague observations of my life because frankly they annoy me when others do them but I'm not exactly sure how else to put it without letting the entire world know just how screwed up in the head i am. oh wait, yall already know that about me.

anyway that's all for now, hope everyone's had a pretty fantastic weekend. Laters yall.

Currently Reading Who Moved My Cheese? An Amazing Way to Deal with Change in Your Work and in Your Life By Spencer Johnson see related

wow so it's been nearly a month, can we say boring life.

so school's back going again which means one good thing, awesome people! I love how many totally rock awesome new people I've met so far this year and we're only 3 weeks in. The bad part of school as always is the classes but they're even tolerable this semester so it's all good. I'm loving my roommates and the enormous amount of craziness that exists in our apartment, i'm still not sure this much fun is legal.

anyway that's about it for my life, I shall report back in when something more exciting happens, who knows maybe i'll meet a talking dog on my next random walk, that would be cool.:)

ps. gotta love the randomness of new features, you can rate your posts, crazy!